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We all
attempt to do our best, or have you not noticed that? At times it feels that our best is just not enough; people expect more than that. So we try; we give more and more, gradually stealing from the time at home we have. Still… it is not enough; it seems life wants even more than that. So, the world around me often gets chaotic, and I feel everything is going wrong. I find myself being irritated, frustrated and it all just seems too much. I forget important things; make mistakes without any such intent. My body is exhausted; my mind has gone a stray. So I walk around, grumping about everything. My shoulders sag; my eyes stare at the floor, without seeing anything at all. Every task seems like it is too demanding; even a smile is too much effort. I shuffle through the tasks at hand, handling only those I can pass along. If this body came with a battery, know that now it is done. I feel a cough coming; this body is giving in; demanding the rest I have withheld. So, I am tired; why should I not just give in? I need some time to sleep; I need to put up my feet. It is here where I really treasure my friends… When I pass by them, they know me well enough to ask, “What’s wrong?” So, I chat a little, shed some of this load by spending time with such a friend. In a day or ten; I return the favour to them. See, we are codependent; because we all experience times of need. Without a friend our mood spiral down, ending in a depressing state. Depression has a one way flow; it leads to considering how to make an end. Sad, when one considers that all that is needed is one good friend. So, forgive me if I am so emotional about the way in which I care. Allow me to express my gratitude; allow me to thank you for my state of mind. These are the things I hold dear; the things I will recall before I ultimately meet my end. I am sure I will be gray and full of wrinkles; thinking of you my dear friend. |
| By : Thys Groesbeek |