Tit-for-Tat

I am sitting with heart in my hand can see it bleed.
How did I allow this to happen; that someone can unintentionally tear me apart.
I have identified the misunderstanding and now I must face the full effect of my choices.
Despite the misunderstanding the pain is real.

For a long time I have devoted my heart to a forbidden love; something I could not have.
I have nursed the emotions and suppressed the actions called for in love.
I have watched my love devoted to another, while I waited in anticipation for it to fail.
I did not and will not; for it was love that was entirely one-sided.

But no more; I will not torment my heart any longer.
My heart I have freed from the chains that held it.
I have forfeited the match out of correct estimation.
It is over and I will long for her no more.

For every one thing sacrificed it will be rewarded multiplied.
I know that I have been fair; not once did I demand anything; her dreams I let her follow.
So, it was not me; but with the release of that love, came another.
Someone that loves me like I loved her; and I understand how she feel.

I will adore this woman that has given me her love until my soul ceases.
She is the only one worthy of my love; and she will know it every day.
I will care for her; I will sacrifice what ever I must.
There is no need for two people to have endured such pain in a decade.

So, I part with my love for one; to reward another’s love, unlike what I have had.
Love is real and the strongest emotion that is known to man.
After a live time of searching, I have found one worthy of being loved; really loved.
Life is too short to direct one’s affection at those who can not return it.
By : Thys Groesbeek