| Me: Good day my memory; fancy you visiting me today. It would have been great if you’d let me know of your intentions. You surprised me; caught me unaware and unprepared. I will have to reorganize my day; allocate some time to spend with you. What is it that you wish me to review again, what unresolved issues is in my mind? It is clear you don’t believe in leaving sleeping dogs to lie. Tell me, what is it that was so important that it could not wait? I’m sure you visited my heart; out with it, how have I neglected it this time? The Prosecutor (Memory): The charge is that of neglect and the intention to deceive your heart. Your mind has been forcing false information to trick your heart. The result of this ill-behaviour is loneliness and regret. It will ultimately disrupt the power of the mind to function at a pro-survival state. Your heart has been fooled; convinced that caring is wrong and brings pain. As you know this is not true; and your heart is left without a function to perform. This is a non-productive state that can only end up in disruption and rebellion. It is contra-survival for yourself; someone you claim to love. Me: I am sorry, but this life is about more than just me and what I want. Many others to consider in each decision; yet, my heart is selfish in its wants. Don’t you know; actions that hurt others habours loneliness and regret too. Who should I consider first, myself or those I love? I see your point and must agree that I should consider my heart a little more. But; my heart requires things I can not give, why is it so unhappy with what it has? It places me in uncomfortable situations and throws tantrums like a child. How am I to respect its needs, when it so clearly disregards others’ feelings? The Prosecutor: Your heart has made a compelling case; it stated that you have never taken its side. It claims that you only consider it, when you sulk about and around. But each time, each time; others are consider more important than you. The charge of deceit and neglect has been brought to rescue you! How will you sleep and how much will you lie; just to guard harmony outside? You know, you remember and I know about the images of love you see. You suppress the feelings of your heart; tell it, not to care and not to love. Why are you so silly; you know you can love more? Me: You are right; I know and understand my capabilities and can love many. It is not that; it is others’ inability to understand that prevents me. I am a loyal friend and I care for those I love, deeply; they just don’t understand! They are blinded by the lie of love within this existence; it’s distorted state. Love has been distorted; love has become selfish and filthy. My love is pure, where the ones I love enjoys first consideration in all choices. Yes I sulk for I am aware of my loss; I am not really lonely just… limited! Love must be restricted to what is acceptable; to prevent further degradation. The Prosecutor: I have heard your case and find that there is no case to pursue. Though the heart is in a terrible predicament, I agree; love must remain pure. The price is high and the situation is sad; but sanity must prevail. Though your intention to love is pure; others will pervert it, it is better left alone. Me: Look sir; it is not easy for me to restrain something as beautiful as my heart. I know its intentions and fear not its ability to care for those it wants. Life is just a little bigger than what I am; sometimes love is best, withheld. I appreciate your finding; knowing that some peace will remain. |
| By : Thys Groesbeek |