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My life
path is now clearly restricted by the viewpoints of
those who can not see. I consider those around me and the harm my needs will cause them is not fair. Should I laugh, smile; maybe a dance will suffice? It is completely unwanted, unwarranted from a self perspective. I am sitting here just barely coping with the beating my heart is taking. I make the tears role backward; inward where it can not be seen. For my sadness initiate undue guilt in the woman I love. How can I allow her to suffer; for something that never stood a chance. My heart is blindfolded now; I will have to discount sparks from my needs. I yearn for that which I may not; that which should not have been, but has. I stare ahead seeing the life I will now have to lead, restrained by my cage. People do not understand concepts clearly and I pay the penalty for it. I am furious and feel that I have been short-handed, but that is just me. I have fallen back in a trend of loneliness, my heart left with one more scar. I wish to cry and through things around; cursing and swearing. How dare these narrow minds, captivate my soul; and call it fair. Oh no… things aren’t so great for me; or do you expect me to lie? I am done and have a bandage around my heart; a band-aid on my soul. What is it with humans and the need to captivate wild things? It is cruel towards me, but I have the assurance that you’ll sleep tonight. Would it be wrong for me to brake out of these chains, because I can you know? I have always had the strength to release me from the things that bind me. But; I have a heart and know how much disruption it would cause. Am I alone to carry this burden… clearly, yes! |
| By : Thys Groesbeek |