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Brace yourself my
heart; carry the hurt inside as expected. Be strong and let this emotion not cripple me for life. Loss is real and its effect everlasting; but despite that, I must go on. Life won’t idle; it won’t wait for me to feel better than I do today. I would have preferred not to feel this pain, this loss; but it’s unavoidable. I will greet you from my life; someday, maybe even from my heart… IT HURTS!!! Though I question the purpose of it, I know, I will lose a little of you; everyday. You will go your way and I will go mine, without the intention to ever do so. I will get over this panic I feel; I will meet uncertainty and make it familiar ground. I will look back from time to time, just to remember the sweet times we’ve had. Don’t be blind, do not ignore the way I feel; don’t tell me my emotions lie. Be what may, but don’t make me believe things will be different than what it will. For now, I must tend to my breaking heart, so I may be whole again tomorrow. I need to cry, be miserable for a while; acknowledge the loss inside. You are special to me and will remain that for always, but I am losing you. Allow me to be sad, take it as validation of how valuable I regarded you in my life. Don’t say I am silly; don’t make less of my pain than what it is. I don’t know what to make of this emotion; or how to make it go my way. I am certain that it will end in, us seeing less-and-less of each other. It is the slow decay that will prolong my agony; until finally you are gone. |
| By : Thys Groesbeek |