| I devote
time out of each day to balance my emotions; to centre
my core. It is not always easy and at times it is pure torture. It is the heart and mind that poses a problem for me; their nature is so different. It is the mind I trust most; while it’s the heart I desire. If only this life was void of consequence; if it permitted the heart sole right of choice! My idealistic core runs wild with this concept; dreaming of how life could be. It appears that but an elect few has the luxury of living life this way. From observation it is those that land up later; alone and without a companion. There is only loneliness that I like less than always following the advices of my mind. Better to love and be loved; than to be adventurous and die alone. Where are the friends that now like your adventurous spirit; when you are alone at home? Where are they, when your home is broken and your children are far away? I am wild at heart, but my sanity prevails each time; excluding a few lovely times. The price of fun can land up having most dreadful effects. People close to me get upset; while my friends remember the most awesome time. And I; am the only one left behind to explain; to make peace and carry the guilt. I often wonder if the loss of my sight would keep me out of trouble. It’s a tremendous price to pay; just to stay on the straight and narrow. No, I enjoy my eyes, I could not be a shadow of the person I am now. How would I see the twinkle in your eye; the enjoyment of a moment gone by? Those that can relate won’t permit my freedom; while those that don’t, fail to understand. Adapting to your environment brings about your survival. Adjusting your environment to suit you; well… that is ideal. I will continue in this existence with a balance between the two. |
| By : Thys Groesbeek |