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It is my
solemn intention to serve You my Lord. My spirit has been broken; now I call on You to heal me my Lord. I am studying the horizon, seeking the silhouette of Your mercy’s approach. Please, be hasty to come to my rescue. I can no longer identify Your will; and the enemy has led me into doubt. I hear a voice; it could be Yours, but it could also be mine. In the hour when I seek to follow You; I am uncertain of how. Speed to my rescue, my Saviour; for the road is gloomy. I deserve to be banished from Your light; my life force to be drained. How will I survive; if not by Your mercy? I am just a sinner; and have been profoundly successful at it. I know right and wrong, but have become uncertain of the difference. I seek in my heart to find joy, trust or hope; with none to find. There is just one thing left to hold onto; and that is YOU. I am uncertain about all the rest. Eli! Eli! Come to my rescue; for my heart is growing dark. I feel the weight of the shackles around my ankles; I know now, I have been captured! MY LORD! SAVE ME! My mind is going insane… My heart is enticed to hate; destroy! Where is the Power I read of in Your Word; the Grace! Is none of it reserved for me; or have I depleted my share? I can not survive this day without your help my Lord. I beg you; have mercy on this rotten soul. I am tired my Lord; I have given my all, no incentive left to carry on. I am not that special, life could easily continue without my contributions. I fear to die alone; but embrace the disconnection from this horrid existence. I am ready to die, with nothing left in me; or to live as You see fit. Please, MY LORD; free me from this pain I carry inside. Release me from the disappointment in my heart, it was ill-advised expectation. I am a non-existent; a body with a depleted soul. I await Your assistance, for there is no more in me. |
| By : Thys Groesbeek |